My fur ball

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Trojan

Happiness!!!

My boys are my biggest supporters when it comes to my riding, even after a fall that Dennis witnessed. It didn't help when the groom was telling me that if he were me, he wouldn't get back on. But it's like driving. After an accident, you need to get behind the wheel the, soonest, and drive to shake off the fear. Erhm...and also guts, especially when you're aching from the fall.

The best thing about riding is the relationship you build with the horse. Though Trojan is not my horse and I'm just one of her riders, we know each other well enough after working together for two years. It's a partnership between the horse and the rider, an unspoken understanding.

Down with the...

When your body tells you there's something wrong, you should listen.

I have been feeling different since Monday but assumed it was the weather or was just plain tired since I have been juggling work and being a domestic diva for the past three weeks (no helper). You know that feeling when you feel hot inside (no, not that kind of hot) and when you check your temperature it shows up as normal? But really, there's something brewing inside.

Thursday, I couldn't get up and called in sick. Friday needed to go to work. With our new site, you need to walk far to get from one place to another. Parking and reaching my production floor is already a work out. I also had to walk all the way to OSMA because I had a schedule for my IPL. Come Saturday night, cold sweats and chills with a fever. I was sick.

Spent almost half the day yesterday in the ER waiting for the results of my blood test and xray.  They were checking if I had sinusitis because of the pain on my forehead, not really my head.

Results came out - I have the flu and upper respiratory tract infection. Bed rest for three days. I don't like being sick. I hate not being able to function normally and staying in bed makes me very restless.

So when your body starts telling you something, you need to listen. Rest!

I say it's my best angle :)

miserable

Wearing the story of my life

I just want to eat everything word I said about saving this year. I scratched off bags but instead found another obsession. Argh!

I discovered Pandora. I’ve seen the posters in the malls but it didn’t really tickle my fancy. But during one of the many reunions just recently, one of my friends wore this really nice, colorful bracelet with such intricate details to each charm. So pretty! How could I resist the temptation of checking it out from the store when my office building is just beside the mall? And so off I went. I was expecting the bracelet to be expensive but it wasn’t so bad. I could actually just buy the bracelet without the charms. Very simple and nice. The charms vary in prices and can get very expensive. But they’re ALL sooooo pretty! I ended up getting myself a bracelet. Uh-oh. And for a start, the first charm I bought was a horse. Of course.

I think the concept of each charm representing or telling a story about your life is awesome. I was showing it to Matt and I told him that if ever he has a baby sister, I will give it to her when she’s grown up. But if it doesn’t happen, it will go to his first daughter. Like an heirloom. He was very excited and we’re on a quest to complete the bracelet. I was planning to get the charm with his birth stone, Tourmaline or Opal. His birth is the most significant event in my life. Unfortunately, there’s none available. The charm that represented family was also not available. So sad. They have very limited stocks here in Manila, which is a shame. I’ve asked my best friend to check during one of her travels. Crossing my fingers she’ll find one. So for now, I got a Murano pink charm since it’s my favorite color.

I’ve already planned out what charms I’ll be getting but again, it depends on the availability. My sweetest lil’ man is also busy looking at the catalog and planning on what he would buy me that represents me (in his eyes). He said a charm with the horseshoe because I love horses and a Christmas tree since it’s my favorite time of the year. Such a darling.

So let’s see how the story of my life will look like on my wrist once completed.

Hopes for 2013

It might be a bit late to be jotting down my NY list but who’s checking, right? So here we go with my NY resolutions, road map or to do list for 2013. What do I want to change this year? Where do I want to go in terms of career, my riding, self-improvement, travel, etc…? What do I want to have? What do I want to accomplish?

Before I start listing things down, a brief reflection of 2012… It was year of the Dragon, my year. Expectation of a great year. And so I thought. It was a tough year. The worst part of it was going through a difficult phase wherein I thought I was going to lose my mind because of anxieties. Stress? Depression? Midlife crisis? Not something I would like to openly share. For those I eventually told, had no idea and always saw me as this cheerful person that just lost a lot of weight. They thought I was drinking slimming teas to lose the weight, not knowing it was the effect of what I was going through. Hahaha! Anyway, after all that, I realized the importance of exercise. You need to have an outlet and release all those negative feelings, frustrations, worries…etc, and replace it with endorphins. In life, we just need to accept things the way they are. I have been very blessed to have absolutely wonderful people around me, especially Dennis and my mom during those times and would hate to see anyone go through it.

So enough with that…I guess losing weight is off my list this year. FINALLY!

Save money. This is a very difficult one. I suck when it comes to living on a budget or stopping myself from buying stuff I don’t need, yet I am able to justify to reasons I need them, in my head to make me feel better. I’m not getting any younger and need to be wise with spending. It’s important to secure Matt’s future and also our retirement. No, I’m not even close to 50, yet!

Travel! The trip to HK has renewed by desire to travel. When I was younger, I got to travel a lot…thanks to my parents and sister. As I grew older and started working, the opportunity lessened since I had to pay for my own fare. For starters, we’ve already booked a trip to Seoul during the Holy week. Crossing my fingers our visas will be approved.

Do something different. I should start a new hobby that will lead into something fruitful in the financial aspect. I honestly can’t rely on my current job to save much. Let’s be realistic.

My riding. It’s still my passion. Still my dream. But it hasn’t been a priority for me anymore. Perhaps discouraged and disheartened that I may not be good at it at all and just really a wannabe. So, no plans as I don’t want to feel deflated as I did last year. Additional savings, then.

Bags. Aha! It’s not on my list this year. I still love bags, don’t get me wrong, but don’t feel the need to save for one. I still drool but that’s about it. Yey for me!

Less eating out. We need to cut down on this. We can save a lot if we ate at home during the weekends. Eating out is our weekend treat after a tiring week. Hmm…this will take a lot of work.

...another baby *sigh*

So, what’s your plan for this year?

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